So I finally have substantial savings and can buy a tiny house or caravan,I have wanted to live in the countryside for a long time and pretty much daydream about it everyday for years now,I have three options for parking it.My sister who has a very long history of controlling behaviour with me,e.g she use to tell me when it was appropriate for me to eat ice cream and had a screaming match in the street with me because I ate ice cream at 11am,she use to tell me what underwear was appropriate for me to wear,what I should bring,do,etc when visiting people you get the idea I didn’t speak to her for eight years because of it and became much much happier,very confident and free.
I’m not use to all that now,she swears she has changed but after much trepidation I started speaking to her a month ago per her request,she hasn’t changed much I still feel completely zapped and unlike myself around her.I recently told her my tiny house dreams which me and my mum keep hidden from her,and she went all out calling them trailer trash etc,she always thinks she knows what’s best for me.She really wants me to get an expensive studio that I cannot afford in the inner city a street away from her,and took me to see it,as you can imagine this is basically my nightmare living close by to her, living in the city, I loathe urban life,high rents too,she says she will pay half my rent but the last thing I need is to be indebted to her.
I told her I’m not doing it this morning,it was very hard as she does not take no for an answer,she wanted to discuss it over breakfast at another one of her pretentious cafes,did I mention my sister and me have nothing in common,I’m quite hippy she doesn’t like hippies.I never cry but I cried over breakfast saying I just want to live in the countryside and live an authentic life I felt I could never be me - bohemian,artist,free spirit because of my sister,she relented a bit. im not use to having to answer to someone again.Does anyone have advice on getting through this,should I give the tiny house dream a try she’s got me doubting myself again but regardless I think the studio next to her is definitely not the answer.
I need to move really soon,she’s all like the studio is ready,the tiny house won’t work out your screwing up your life etc.
Submitted August 05, 2018 at 10:50PM by Katietennyson https://ift.tt/2KwqcNV
