I’m in my late 30’s and though I’m doing ok, you know, no overdue debts, no struggling to pay bills, some savings, I don’t own a house though, but lately I’ve been feeling very depressed and guilty about all the years I’ve been wasting money.
I pay off my credit cards and the next thing you know they’re all maxed out again. I’ve traveled a lot hence the maxed out credit cards and I can’t really complain about that because it’s good to travel, but I could have done it a lot smarter though, like saved up more for it instead.
I never considered myself a shopaholic because I imagine that as people who continually buy expensive clothes, shoes, makeup, like they want to keep up with the latest trends, and I don’t consider myself that type of person, I feel that is a waste of money to buy expensive things like that, I mean as a female I get my hair cut for like $30 lol and my phones are usually hand me downs, but I think I am one because every couple of days I would buy cheap things online and didn’t feel bad because it was cheap, I mean sometimes I would buy things online when I was half asleep and not even remember buying them, and even though it’s cheap if you’re doing it all the time then it really starts adding up! I mean I’ve bought clothes or makeup online, it arrives and I don’t like it or it doesn’t fit, I usually just end up throwing it away or donating it. I mean I really cringe at how often I did that, it was the thrill of buying things and getting things in the post I was addicted to.
Anyway I was going to turn my life around this year which is why I’ve been thinking about all this recently. I’m lucky that COVID hasn’t effected me and I still have a job etc but like I said I’ve been feeling really depressed and guilty about my years of wasting money and the state of my finances lately. I guess I just wanted to put this out there just to get it off my chest and maybe I’ll stop feeling so depressed about it.
January 04, 2021 at 08:33PM
