Good morning. I’m not looking for any sympathy here cause I know that I’m totally responsible for all the mess in my life right now.
I’m 25. I’ve been stripping for 6 years now. What do I have to show for that? Nothing. Nada. Zero. I don’t have a degree, I truly don’t know what I want to do with my life or what I want to do when I grow up. I have 50k in my savings account , a decent credit score and no debt. Sounds not too bad for a young girl but... I’ve been making 70-80k a year. So My savings amount is not enough, IMO. I could have saved so much more.
The ironic part is that I wasn’t even living super lavish life either. I don’t have a closet full of designer things , expensive electronics or equinox membership(lol), took nice vacations maybe twice, don’t go out much, don’t live in a high-end building with doorman, pool and gym, do not have expensive hobbies and so on. Thus I really don’t know where tf all these $$$ went to. No, I don’t do drugs. No kids or leeching boyfriends.
However, I always lived in expensive cities. I can’t move to a state/town with a low cost of living as I’ll obviously make way less over there. I have to spend some money as I frequently travel out of state to other cities to work when slow season hits my town and my earnings go down to 100-300$ per night.
My expenses : 1)rent - $1500 2)bills - $200 3)cell phone - $100 4)food - $800(I buy organic and eat out a lot, lol) 5)health insurance - $400 6)therapy sessions - $800 7)uber/public transit - $300-500 8)going out - $200 9)make-up/skin care - $200 10)clothing/shoes - $500 11)toiletries - $50 12)hobbies - $300-500 13)helping my father out- $700 14)traveling - $200
When I travel for work to other cities, then I have to spend another grand or two a month.
I do realize that I could have been way more frugal and cut down on going out and so on but on the other hand, I always justified it by asking myself if dancing is even worth it if I can not even treat myself a bit. I don’t know.
I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety since I was a teen. Thus I end up taking LOTS of days off when I go through tough episodes. Otherwise, I just can not focus on working and don’t make shit. Yes, I do need to get my shit together.
Plus I’ve struggled to save as much as I could cause often I save X dollars, then boom - I have some kind of an issue that requires money to fix, be it a week or two of me, not getting out of bed due to my mental health issues etc or I have earnings slump or some other nonsense comes up.
I was thinking of buying a property but nobody will lend to a stripper. And I started filing taxes only last year(yes, I know).
Submitted February 27, 2019 at 06:30AM by loserthrowaway999 https://ift.tt/2TkDtSa
