Have you ever thought about if your goals are really your true goals? Are they someone else's goals? Why is it I'm seeing myself as somebody because of certain skills which I'm not sure I can acquire (and be happy afterwards). I feel like chasing something, which I'm not sure will grant me what I so deep down want.
If this is not the right subreddit please point me somewhere whre I can cry my heart out a little more.
I feel like I need to prove something... something more, something worthy (what does that mean?!) and to whom? Myself? I guess.
So a little more about myself; I'm 23 years old, I'm studying medicine and I'm half done (speaking of a length of the program). I am facing a decision. Pretty big one, but nothing life ruining I think. For next three years we must choose a work that we will be making and defend it before our professors (that is due the graduation). And I chose probably the hardest one (at least for me). Didn't think about it that much beforehand I guess.
So did I make a mistake choosing this? I know I am capable of doing this, just... Is this worth the pain? If I give up, IF ANYBODY WOULD DO THAT, would the achieve the big things they did achieve? I know this is all up to me and you guys do not know me, but
Why can't I simply choose the simple life, the simple solution? Why do I HAVE TO go for the complicated one? Did you sometimes feel this urge and felt stranger than anytime before?
Please discuss.
EDIT: Forgot to edit the crappy title. Also my terminology in college sphere in english is lacking, so I hope you can understand me.
Submitted August 15, 2018 at 06:08PM by perElel127 https://ift.tt/2nIiCH0
