so I've noticed everyone is kinda addicted to their phone like its another limb, but not everyone is aware of it.
i realize phones can be useful and handy and having all the things you need in one device is a smart thing. HOWEVER i just cant look away anymore to the point my eyes are burning and my sleeping pattern screwed up. i get it when i wake up, when im about to make breakfast, when i wanna research smth, when i am bored and before i sleep.
its like any of my other hobbies dont do that you knw? i just cant find myself get addicted enough by drawing or painting or playing the guitar or running etc someday i get tired and bored of it and wanna do smth else. and i guess thats a good thing, nothing in life should be addicting. anyways. but with phones and technology in general its different, you can spend hrs and hrs, feel the burn in your eyes, be terrebly tired but u wont put it away. you can watch videos on youtube all day long even though u dont even care about what ur watching.
i guess for me its two things:
1.i am bored. even though i have hobbies, could go outside in the sun, i always choose my phone. even if im not even in the mood for a movie, here i am searching for one.
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its a habit. you know its an addicted when u need to do it to feel satisfied and relieved. i think about my phone right when i wake up and its like that 'phone'..'no dont get it now, wait until later' 'but what if someone wrote me a message' 'probably no one and u know it' 'ughhh just real quick' ...
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for some reason i became so lazy and a procrastinator, idk why or how it happens but sometimes i dont feel motivated enough to do something and being on the phone is easy and effortless
for example when i do yoga, i keep thinking about how much longer until i can finally go back to bed and be on my phone, its sick. i wanna enjoy it cause i really do like it
if it was just a 'simple' drug youd go to rehab and endure the pain. but with a phone u cant do it. ppl call me, mssg me, email me, most ppl just use whatsapp and i like to listen to music via spotify. i thought about getting a flip phone but then i would just replace it with a laptop. same deal: wasting time with stuff u dont care about, scrolling around just to be scrolling.
i want my life to be balanced, but how? i wanna wake up, do yoga (but then again i need the laptop for the video cause else idek how to do it) make breakfast, do idk what maybe out a bit and read or sit down the beach, go for a run maybe, go home and make lunch then study (need laptop to study cause i study by myself) after studying i could play some guitar and then paint or draw or go out again and then come back and do some arts. after that have a snack then maybe read or idek what u can do in a day anyways??? guess my life is so boring i tend to waste time on my phone as a form of escapism? but after than id Just go to bed and sleep. but idk if i'd be happy that way? it seems so bland ?
Submitted July 29, 2018 at 10:43AM by Ivoriy https://ift.tt/2OrXCAH
