Yesterday my Mom kicked me out.
We’ve had a poor relationship for most of my life, and she feels that whenever something good happens to her I ruin it in some way. For the past year leading up to this I’ve rarely been in the house, just as a way to try and avoid the constant conflict. I’ve been in therapy for some time and it’s taken this year to realize that the way she treats me is “abusive,” and my constant paranoia in my own home was not normal. While I was packing my things yesterday she said many hurtful things, telling me I’ll ‘never amount to anything’, she ‘never wanted me’, and I’m ‘the most selfish and dramatic person she’s ever met’.
Before this happened, I’ve felt I have a lot of things going for me. I’m currently in University, an honours program I’m going into my second year with. I worked a well paying job as a pharmacy technician in high school that allowed me to buy my own car in full, now only needing to worry about insurance. Currently, I am working a casual part-time retail job, a decision I had made to lessen stress so I could focus on studies. Come September I will be commuting to school once again (45 minute drive away) and presumably my hours at my job will go down.
Right now my boyfriend’s family has taken me in, so I have somewhere to sleep. However, I worry about becoming a nuisance in some way like I was to my own parents. I have another 3 years of University to get through, so I will need to find my own place at some point.
My biggest fear right now is that I’m going to lose everything. I have an education plan, a job (albeit, not anything special), and a car, but how can I keep this up with costs? Especially considering the eventual need to find my own place to live.
My savings are fairly minimal. I have about $450 in my account right now, and about $1600 tucked away in another account I don’t have a card to right now.
I would really appreciate any advice any of you have!
[TLDR] 18F, Living with boyfriend for time being. Second year in University with a part-time retail job, and a car. Scared of future and eventually being on my own.
Submitted June 07, 2018 at 07:11AM by superdupersav https://ift.tt/2sRnUCu
