Ever since school, just like majority of people, 9 hour study, work days, weekend free was normal. I always felt like I'm going a bit crazier each day, but I sucked it up, did the best I could of a not so pleasant situation because this is how you survive in the modern world right. Who am I to complain among everyone else who does it.
Now I work 8 to 5 after going through several type of jobs, with no vacation, 3 sick days. Pay is decent, enough to have savings, my own place, car, etc. It's....bearable. During work, I take more frequent mental breaks, try doing something fun, walks, changing it up, improving my skill, etc, it all helps a bit, but it's like fighting the constant battle of work and personal life.
It's not like you work 9 hours and bam, 7 hours free. But the commute, getting ready for work, getting ready for next day of work, destressing after work, taking time to try and relax and fall asleep, not thinking about tomorrow, just...accepting it as is. Feels like I'm working 12 hours a day, with 4 hours free.
Just...I know how to make work more bearable, changing it up, learning new skills, it all helps, but...it always come back to same thing, battling over time, is this really what I want to do with my time. I've just hit 30 now...do I want to keep doing this type of life for next 30 years? Sure, it gives that financial stability, good retirement, etc, but I question this more and more frequently lately.
Should I drop it and try to van life, or maybe go online life and live somewhere cheaper? Go off grid, I don't know. I do enjoy the financial stability, don't get me wrong, but the time sacrificed for it, I don't know...
Thing is, the work itself is fine, it's the time. I actually enjoyed work at first, but it quickly got tiring. Knowing I have to do this for 9 hours...I just...end up barely working at all now. Things are piling up, yet I'm just doing the very bare minimum work to go unnoticed.
I fantasize being able to have flexible hours. Work 2 hours somedays, or 10 hours, whatever I feel like is needed. If I feel down, take more time off, feeling good and want to get work super organized, come up w new ideas, etc. I want to spend some time doing nothing, enjoying relaxing, and just work on my own self, my own personal mental health and well being. Visit the friends who've I've neglected over the years. Have time to actually own a dog finally, get the bestest boy ever or girl. Can never get myself to get one knowing I'd be gone for 10 hours of the day and that the stress sometimes...gets to me and I have a hard time going out for days.
In the end, I do'nt know what to do. I don't know if part time life is possible in a way to sustain yourself. I don't even know if part time jobs exist aside from retail jobs. I'm just an bookkeeping clerk, I can't even call myself a full pledged accountant. Do I even have the skill in demand to even ask for part time...
I feel lost. I don't know what to do. Any advice? Maybe I'm just having a 1/3 life crisis or something here.
edit: thank you everyone so far for sharing and giving advice. I didn't think I'd get this many responses this quick, especially it being positive or relating to it. I know this is simple living, but I'm surrounded by people who think otherwise.
Submitted April 16, 2018 at 12:22PM by zph0eniz https://ift.tt/2EQI9nF
