Disclaimer: This may not be the place for this, but regardless...
So, I'm a 22y/o male still living at home with my mom in Canada. Graduated high school and got my diploma three years ago but I've been struggling to put my life together past that point. Sometime within that three-year period I came down with a partial disability that severely limits my ability to work.
Because of this, I've held numerous jobs (cashier, lubrication technician, server, etc.) but haven't been able to hold them because the physical nature of these jobs was simply too taxing and I was forced to quit. I've tried to get on disability but require a formal diagnosis; EKG and MRI scans have shown an abnormality but nothing that doctors can actually put a name to, and hence, no disability.
All of this has put severe financial burden on my mother, who is already poor and now struggling to pay bills for two people in the same house as well as my expenses as I have no income. We're on welfare and struggling to make ends meet and she's about to lose her job come January so I know that I need to get my life together now - and I want to, because the guilt of being so useless and undervalued by my family and the few friends I have is gut-wrenching.
Through all of this hardship, my only real reason to live and to get my life together was my girlfriend of three years and my best friend of five. I'd (foolishly) been thinking that as soon as I was able to move in with her and we started our life together, things would start looking up, but that relationship ended a few nights ago and I'm now in the darkest place I've ever been in my life with no direction on where to go and nobody to talk to.
I want to get my life together, and I want to be someone that other people can appreciate and someone who deserves happiness, but in my current situation, I'm at a loss. I don't know what to do, or how to do it. I have no idea where to go from here, what options are out there for me, and I have nobody to help me. Life as a whole just feels really futile right now and I've been breaking down every night just thinking about how much of a failure I am.
Any help is appreciated.
Submitted November 29, 2017 at 11:54PM by SpitzerFX http://ift.tt/2zCMTLI
