At my workplace, it has been a well-known fact that we’ll go through a downsizing process this spring. Layoffs are solely based on evaluations that my soon-to-be ex-employers did throughout the year. Every now and then, we have a one-on-one meeting with our boss to discuss issues/events around the workplace. My boss and I used to joke around a lot and seemed to have a good relationship until recently.
When I asked him about my evaluations a couple of months ago, my boss said I did well. “Well” was too broad of a term for me, so I wanted him to be more specific – within his own limitations of course. Therefore, I asked him if I did “well” compared to my colleagues. His response was rather surprising as I was expecting a very general answer, and perhaps unprofessional as well: He pulled the evaluation of one of my coworkers on his screen – let’s call her Alexandra. He then told me with a straight face that she fared worse than me so I shouldn’t be worried about being laid off.
A couple of months later, I got an e-mail stating that my employer will no longer need my services after a certain date. I sort of expected it, which is why I didn’t have much of a reaction at first. All of my frustrations came after a short chat with Alexandra. I’ve asked if she got the e-mail and she had no idea what I was talking about. I explained to her that I was getting laid off and then she went to her desk right away to see if she received it. This happened a couple of weeks ago, and to this day, she still hasn’t received any emails notifying her about the layoff.
I’m obviously not mad at Alexandra and I still wish her the best. However, I’ve completely lost trust and respect towards management and HR. I’m not quite sure what to believe in anymore. Did HR lie in our meetings when they said that only the evaluations were to be considered for the layoffs? Or did my boss pretend that everything was fine when it wasn’t? Ever since that infamous e-mail, I’ve stopped speaking to my boss unless it’s necessary and whenever he asks me anything, I give him very short answers. I really feel like telling him off and calling him out for disclosing private information of other employees and for hiding the truth from me. I feel like I might “blow up” (in a non-violent fashion) sometime and tell him off before my employment is terminated. My blood starts to boil whenever I see him. I can’t even look him in the eye.
Part of me tells me to “act cool and natural” with my manager until I get laid off just so that he gives me a reference for the future. However, I really despise him and I don’t know if I can act that way for another 3 weeks. On my last day, I really plan on storming out of the building without shaking his hand and saying bye to him. I can’t shake such a man’s hand.
Submitted May 23, 2017 at 07:06PM by NintendoSwitchFan92 http://ift.tt/2q8VC7V
