Hi everyone
I have two scenarios ahead of me and I have to decide ideally within 24-48 hours, i've tried to delay making a decision for ages but I can't hold out any longer as I have to start informing people. I would be appreciative of everyone's feedback, but I also ask for kindness/respect as i've been really burnt out and highly stressed.
Basically this is the row of events. The issue revolves around money/logical decisions and balancing that with connection/mental health.
I am a recent graduate in psychology and marketing. I have been working in retail and online marketing alongside my studies, with about 50K USD savings from multiple jobs etc. Due to covid and also cultural disconnect i've not enjoyed the last so and so years while studying here, although I tried to make the most out of it /count what you are grateful for. I come from a mixed cultural background and its a common disconnect experience with people similar to me in this country.I have had almost a 10 year long dream/plan to migrate to a European country where I have lived before and did various short-medium term study stays or personal/travel/family friends etc. I've got a massive personal connection there and it's where I am happiest. I am proficient in psych and marketing, but my heart lies with psychology and it comes more naturally to me (just mentioning for context, not seeking career advice) - therefore I want to explore this.I am at cross roads right now, especially being the little fun and very financially responsible kind of person - and I'm finding it hard to concentrate/see everything clearly because I am so exhausted.
- I recently received a last minute offer for a psychology study place, its about 30,000 USD in total (not in the U.S, overseas), its in Europe so starts around October.Family are happy to assist, but due to perhaps my overly cautious financial personality I haven't just jumped at it. (EDIT: sorry to clarify - this study is in the country I wish to permanently migrate to)
- In my home country, I have been offered to do a temporary 6 month full-time role with my existing employer, where I would earn about 22K USD in total during this time, followed by going back on part time for the next 6 months, so earning about 11K. This would be the first time I ever had a fixed full time role, even if only 6 months. My job is relaxing, flexible and my colleagues are on a friend-level with eachother/me. Everything is possible, there's not too much pressure. This would mean that I have more savings, and might live with a relative in a super rural location to save rent. However, I know my mental health would take a hit, more than it is currently. Especially over the last 2 years, it has been extremely socially isolating. This is due to cultural/geo-distance and recently covid reasons. I also am heading towards my later 20's and feel sad that I don't have anyone in my life, and given I wish to migrate permanently to the EU country, I refrain from bothering here. It was only a few months ago that I had an extreme sense of hopelessness, and I can't tell if the potential excitement of finally migrating and moving on is giving me the false sense that i'll be okay mentally if I stay in my home country for another year.
To add another two spanners in the works, the following is likely to apply for 1) and 2)a) I am likely to receive a scholarship to cover most if not all of those studies plus some health insurance (master is 2 years). If I start now 1) = 1 year of financial support. If I start next year 2) (Oct approx. in 2020) then I could receive support for both years.
b) Not that im asking for advice on my career path, but just wanted to add that it will be about 4-5 years before I am earning full time again due to psy training periods, and even though I can manage financially, my low financial risk tolerance perhaps is quite low due to my immigrant background.
If you made it this far, thank you so much for reading and I look forward to all your replies.
Submitted September 14, 2021 at 10:03AM by GrandStand8 https://ift.tt/3zaqwLy
