I am 24 years old, I've been lost in life for most my life, never really knowing what I wanted to do.
Went to college, but ended up dropping out twice because I could never really focus and get the motivation (I have ADD, and always got overwhelmed once I started falling behind).
At 24, I finally found something I want to pursue, and am taking courses to get certified in full stack development, to hopefully land a job as a junior javascript developer/full stack developer of sort, but I still have 3 months before getting the certification if I finish the course.
I currently have a job at a small company, maybe 50 employees. I was hired as an IT Assistant, but have been tasked with the job of HR (Contacting colleges, recruiting new employees, contacting them for job fairs, contacting clubs for specific majors etc), tasked with revamping their company website, their company twitter, facebook and other social media, writing and providing content for the said sites, reviewing resumes for managers, creating an application for the company site, while still providing IT support for all the employees (I am the only IT person, so any and all IT problems come to me including server side problems). Contacting Microsoft or any other companies regarding issues.
This is my first real job. Before this, I worked at fast food, or Uber/Lyft. The money isn't the greatest, I'm supposed to be making $35k, but I'm netting $2000/mo.
I was slowly trying to be financially independent, but wasn't able to pull off right away. I was scammed when buying a car, and am $20k under, so I can't sell my car, and was stuck making $500/mo payment per month, $300 in gas, $300 in parking for both school/work, $200 in lunch at work, sometimes dinner after school, my medicine, $50 for my heart issues, and $350 for my ADD (I've tried Adderall, Concerta, Ritilin and others but found only Vyvanse works without making my heart feel like it's cramping up).
I am currently living with my girlfriend at her parents, and we are trying to move out, but she is in a similar situation with payments, and have students loans coming in that she needs to pay too on top of everything, and she is making $38k.
My mother is in an extremely abusive relationship, not physical but very psychological and emotional abuse. She has constantly told me and my brother she wants to die and leave, but is afraid being in her 50s, that she doesn't want to live alone, and is not in a financial situation to just uproot and leave. Especially having three dogs, she is unable to find any apartments that will accommodate her.
I am a mess right now because I don't know what to do.
I just got a text from my mother's husband, whom I refuse to call dad, that he cut me from everything and to never contact my mother.
I checked online, and my car insurance, my cell phone bill, my student loans, the school payment for classes I'm taking now, everything has been removed from the family plan.
I have just been landed another $1000~1500/mo in payments that I literally can't afford right now. I haven't added everything up yet.
I am falling behind in school because I am overwhelmed with work and amount of things they hand me to do, and I am starting to fall behind. I am 12 homework behind currently and am struggling to focus and keep up with the classwork.
I am not making enough to be able to support myself financially but am in no situation to leave the job to focus on school because I can't take care of myself financially.
I don't know what I can do.
Edit: I'm trying to get to the point where I don't have to rely on anyone, and I have been grateful and fortunate enough to have a mother who was willing to help me out until I can get on my own two feet.
Edit: I don't care if I get downvoted, but please post a constructive advice if you're going to downvote anyway. I am deserpately trying to figure out what I can do.
Edit: To the people downvoting this and my comments, can you maybe post reasons for downvoting so I can understand? Maybe clarify what you don't understand, or disagree with?
Submitted May 27, 2018 at 11:23PM by DesperateHeIpNeeded https://ift.tt/2seXj2x
