TLDR: I need help drastically simplifying my life, and learn how to find happiness from within myself .
In need of drastic change now. Starting my ridiculously difficult tonight. In need of any help, tips, supports and articles you guys can provide.
Background. 22 / M / Retail Banking-Finance
Recently broke up with my girlfriend of 4 years last month, while we still live together we have adjusted and she is moving out in about 2 months ( I was the only breadwinner for the span of the relationship so she's working on getting employment and supporting herself )
I've always been an extrovert growing up. Always needing attention from people, being the life of the party and also falling into a deep depression when alone . I was also a social media ADDICT. Always watching what's going on with friends, acquaintances, and family .
After a year into our relationship I deleted every single social media I had. Stopped talking to all my friends and most of my family. I slowly sunk into depression.
Come 6th months ago I was diagnosed with ADHD and clinical depression ( first time ever going for any kind of help for my mental health)
Now taking Adderals and Wellbutrin
So naturally when we broke up Reactivated all my social media and attempted to talk to anyone and everyone, new or old in my life . Around the same time I started to get acute panic attacks and anxiety that gradually became worse over time.
I recently found myself alone, no friends, family or anyone to talk to .
I've been sleeping less, eating less, buying useless shit and blew through my savings (5k of a bunch of useless shit) and the only thing that's been on my mind the past few weeks was that I am missing out on life. Why no one wants to be my life or why no one wants to be in mine .
Fast forward to last night / this morning . While eating out somewhere I started having a massive anxiety attack that led to me being rushed to the hospital (couldn't breathe, blacked out and from what I was told I was shaky and reacted to anybody that tried to touch me)
I was released today.
I've been following this subreddit for a while now and reading into minimalism.
So all day I've just been reading blogs, articles and pages trying to see what I can do.
Could not find the answer I needed.
So with all of the information I accumulated today this is what i did and how it's affecting me so far.
Deleted all my social media -FOMO and I just feel so lost, lonely and anxious.
Decluttered, Donated or trashed all my junk -Felt depressed cause of how much money I've wasted.
Creating a budget to follow -Scared of not enjoying life .
I will be seeing my therapist in a month since she is out of the country .
I just want to know for anyone that has experienced something similar or even a small part of this. If you have any advice, tips, suggestions of books or articles I should read .
I just wanna be able to be happy within myself and not wanting/craving the attention of other people .
While I might sound like I'm just a bratty young millennial complaining/bitching this is how my life is playing out and I'm afraid this depression will get to me .
I just want to know how to live a simple life
Submitted May 07, 2017 at 01:28AM by oscarlitosf http://ift.tt/2qFi9Zr
