I’m young (21) and just started my career. I started building interest in the field (computery stuff) back in elementary school and pretty much stuck with it ever since. I started to lose interest midway through high school, but I stuck with it anyway since it was what everyone expected me to.
I went to a really good CS university and now have a high paying job. The only thing is that I hate my job. Even when I went to college I kept thinking about switching majors literally every single quarter. I didn’t ever switch because I knew so many people dream getting the opportunity to be in my major.
Within a month of starting my job I began to hate it. I’m burnt out, getting really unproductive at work, and I feel like I need to do something about it or else I’ll end up unemployed. I know a ton of people hate their job so it feels really unfair for me to complain. At least I’m getting paid well for my job. Not many people get that luxury.
At this point I’m only staying because I need to help my parents out and because my SO is chronically ill and has expensive medical costs which I want to be able to support when if/when we get married. Many hate their jobs, but how do they do it? I’m trying really hard to push through and do it for the people I love and care about so much, but it’s getting to feel impossible for me.
What I always wanted to pursue was music. I know it’s not a good career and not practical. But I can’t even listen to music on my own anymore without feeling upset that I can’t do that. The last time my girlfriend turned on the radio I just broke down crying. I know this sounds really dramatic, but I’m just trying to find a solution.
People tell me to do software development work with music companies, but I’ve done that before and it wasn’t any better. I just really hate this field and this job. I’ve hated it for years and hated it more than I ever loved it.
How do you all do it?
Submitted June 11, 2021 at 03:30AM by twy314 https://ift.tt/3v8mKAs
