To put it simply, my living scenario is making me miserable. I’m working at a starbucks restaurant in which i thought i was going to adore, and now i have come to realize my entire life is spent working. I come home and i am too tired to move. My day is 8.5 hours of being there and that’s it. I sat on the toilet today when i got home and all i could think of sitting there is “wow i felt like i wasn’t a human all day”. This isn’t my first time full time job in a high stress environment. But this time around I just physically cant bring myself to even wake up in the morning.
I still live at home, it’s very toxic. I’m trying to move out in a year with my boyfriend. I’m at a loss. I just want to feel like a person. Working these jobs aren’t making me feel like a person. The last two months i feel like i’ve been in autopilot. It’s no way to live. I discovered this sub, and a few other like it and i just want to know... where do i start? I just want to enjoy life at a person. I don’t care about being extremely successful. I just want to be happy, and i’ve been so unhappy.
Do I sound whiny? I don’t know. Ever since all that time off with covid i come to realize as people it’s ridiculous we spend so much of our lives at work. Just to live the life... we aren’t really living. What a realization that was. I want to nip this in the butt while i’m young and look back on a life of personal joy that comes from within and the people around me. Not from money and material items, and working everyday for nothing in the end.
Edit: grammar.
Submitted November 06, 2020 at 07:57PM by glasswiitch https://ift.tt/32CHx3V
