I am 41 and have always wanted to finish my bachelor's degree. I got my AA degree at community college and have had several false starts with my Bachelor's. I've attended 3 major universities just trying to commit to a degree plan and finish. Working in the corporate world for 20 years, I always felt like getting my degree in graphic design/photography wasn't a "smart move" so I tried Human Resource Management and Business Administration, both of which I hated and quit.
I FINALLY found what looked to be a pretty good online program at ASU and started this Spring. At first I was excited, knowing that this would be my last attempt. However, I could not get past the fact that I am teaching myself. The straw that broke the camel's back is that in more than one class, they had us sign up for LinkedIn learning and that's what the professors used as our lecture materials. LinkedIn learning training videos, which costs $29.99 a month. So I'm paying thousands in tuition to teach MYSELF what is already available, just to have a piece of paper from an institution? NO THANK YOU.
I have been feeling stressed, overwhelmed, and pulled in different directions. Every night has been 2-3 hours of homework, after working 10 hour days. My hubby and I are in the process of transitioning to a 30-acre homestead which is 1.5 hours from where we currently live. So, we have been living separately while he is there getting it going and I am working here. I am so tired of the distance.
This weekend we worked on our farm, got the goat pen installed for our baby goats, and on Saturday we capped off the night by clearing the land where our cabin will go and having some beers around a huge bonfire. I blew off ALL my homework, and it felt amazing. I had a twinge of guilt, but I just KNEW in my heart that in that moment it was more important to work on our tangible, simple reality. I have been beyond tired of enslaving myself to some idea of "success" and getting into debt to do it.
I feel a thousand times lighter than I have all year. My weight gain, my lack of motivation...those were byproducts of me not living as my authentic self.
KNOWLEDGE IS FREE. LEARNING IS FREE. SKILLS ARE AVAILABLE FOR THE TAKING.
And I don't need a piece of paper to prove what I am capable of.
Submitted September 28, 2020 at 09:21PM by EarthSuit79 https://ift.tt/3cDj4z0
