I just can't seem to find a way out of this terrible, complicated life.
I'm young (24) and I have a job that I like most days but I hate being in debt from student loans and I hate renting and leasing everything.
My job requires that I live near a city (Live Event Production) but I don't like city life. I can't get into a new field bc I don't know how to do anything else and every house around me that isn't a total shitter is way more than I can afford. I finally started to look outside the city and I said I would just deal with the 45min-hour drive each day but even that is way too expensive for me.
So instead, like a fool, I started looking for vacant land and I thought I would build a post frame house instead. I thought it was really my way out. So I spent days drawing up some rough 2D plans for a small, simple house to send to a builder that someone I know recommended and the quote came back as literally way more than I could even dream of affording.
I hate how I feel and I hate how no matter where I turn, I'm doomed to be in debt, leasing a small shitty apartment that's too expensive, paying a car payment I feel is unfair, with no change or no hope or no promotion in sight because I'm the only person my age at my workplace that isn't just physical labor. But my age still holds me back and prevents me from being taken seriously among the boomers and Gen x's at the company.
Everyday that light at the end of the tunnel gets dimmer.
Submitted September 03, 2020 at 09:36PM by kissingthehomies24 https://ift.tt/31WbbB1
