So my family is most likely going to qualify for $2, 400. I feel like I should be excited about it. I should be jumping up and down that I get a beautiful refund to help me through this difficult time.
In reality I don't feel that way. I am pretty frugal and per my post a while back I live in bare minimums right now to be paying off loans. As soon as that money hits my accountnI am gonna feel horrible because I then have to give it straight back to great lakes. I have a problem with desiring instant gratification. I want to take it and buy a couch and in the back on my mind I keep telling myself that there is no reason to put it towards loans as it only changes the end date of my repayment by a month. The logical side of me though knows I need to allocate that towards loans.
So if we get this check and I don't lose my job in the next few months I am going to be paying it towards loans. I believe I can live a few more months resisting spending on nonessentials. I just need. To keep reminding myself that once I have it paid off I will have much more financial freedom! Sorry for the rant. Just trying to keep myself motivated and with everything that is going in I feel like I am going crazy.
March 26, 2020 at 07:48PM
