Some background
I grew up in a family and area where people were constantly judging others on their jobs, incomes, cars, clothes etc. I’ve always suffered from anxiety that I internalized because of this, never feeling like I quit fit in. I was able to coast by in life and get average grades without having to try very hard. Whenever I would sit down to do any kind of work I would just get anxiety that made me not able to focus on the task at hand. I was tested for add/adhd numerous times and was never diagnosed, but who knows.
I ended up going to college and getting a degree I didn’t care about, and that couldn’t really be used for anything simply because my parents made me go to college because “that’s just what you do.”
Flash forward to now and I have a good job working in a warehouse where half of my day is spent on my feet being physical while the other half is at a desk doing clerical work. I make 50k + some overtime and have good benefits. Some days it’s slow to the point where I can watch tv or a movie on my phone. I know there are people living paycheck to paycheck and struggling to get by, so I am grateful for the job I have.
Even though I am grateful for my job I wouldn’t say I love it. Some days I don’t like it at all, but that may be more so due to not liking some coworkers than the actual job. To me a job has always been something I do to afford to live and have money to enjoy my free time with my fiancé, friends and family. I get random spurts of anxiety though when I think about how I may not always want to work in warehouses, but am not gaining skills to branch out in the future. At the same time though, I’m all about peace and freedom of anxiety through living simply and as minimally as can be compromised between me and my fiancé.
Sorry if this is all just a big mess of a rant. That’s how it is my head all the time lol. I guess I’m just wondering how others who have these debates with themselves are able to figure out if simple living is a genuine life choice, or an excuse to be comfortable.
Submitted December 30, 2019 at 07:14PM by hufflepuff2222 https://ift.tt/2rGfZeu
