Im so frustrated. My boyfriend is financially supporting me and our baby thats on the way. He finally got a job and we had a plan to save up 3k by the time I go into labor so we can have a cushion. 3k was really low, we could of honestly saved like 5k because he was making a lot of money each week but I know he is bad with money so I wanted to be realistic. He said we are able to save 5k,he seemed to be down with it and focused so I was like okay great! once we do that we can spend 2k on a used car. Anyways we had saved up 2500 with like 4 months to go until I reach expected due date. When we had saved that amount he got another job. He didnt even start yet but for some reason his logic is, well I have another job so I can buy this and just make it back. He ended up spending like 1500 on some bullshit. Ever since then I feel like we aren't saving anything....because we really arent. Spending that money really put us in a hole and just keeps getting deeper and deeper. The amount in our bank accounts keeps subtracting we have like 500 dollars total.....Im stressed the baby due date is next month. We have no money, no car, no car seat, I dont even have my hospital bag and diaper bag ready. Im just so fucking annoyed with myself and him. He alwyas spends money on little shit to where I dont spend a dime, I dont want it to get any lower so I dont spend anything.
Its like when we have the spending money after we put our savings to the side I dont buy anything right away so he spends it and ends up spending it all plus more. So then I cant ever get the stuff I need because Im like well, Ill just wait until the next paycheck becuase I dont want to go into our savings. But hes like well just buy it, im working well make it back. But thats not how I operate, I like to add on not make it back. I dont spend money like that. I like to save. Its not like we have any real expenses. When I was in control of the savings we actually have savings but when it is in his hands we have nothing.
But yeah I just needed to vent because I dont want to vent to my family because they will just judge me and my boyfriend and I dont feel like hearing their "advice" and I dont have any other friends to vent to. Im just to the point where I want to work myself. I want a job, I want to be in control of the money coming in. What can I do to make money at 9 months pregnant? Is it even possible? Im sad, I feel like I been wasting my time, I cant even tell my boyfriend how frustrated I am without him being upset. I cant even cry about it even though i really want to.
July 04, 2019 at 08:30PM
