Tl;Dr wanna improve my appearance for dating/job interviews, but hate spending the money and question my motives.
It feels like a waste: yes a haircut looks nicer than what I can do myself but not that much nicer. And if Everytime I cut my hair I spent a few minutes on YouTube I could get a lot better a lot faster and then the difference would truly be marginal.
I decided to try tanning, bc I wanna get into online dating and I want my pictures to look nice. I'm confident, I cold approach women etc but I just figures that dating is hard enough why not spend a little to look nice?
But appearance is such a bottomless pit, both financially and emotionally: endless products, and often though you look marginally more attractive you actually feel worse for having obsessed over your faults. At least that's how I feel now. I'd rather not think about it and accept that my appearance is more or less fixed.
I feel guilty for spending money that could be put to my down payment on my starter house. I feel like I'm making dumb purchases out of fear of rejection: job interviews, women etc.
July 09, 2019 at 12:31AM
