because people have no sympathy, or empathy, obviously. everywhere I research is expensive, even for a bedroom, and cheap places have no reliable transportation. the worst part? every job expects you to be happy, or fake it, or coworkers / managers torture you, or eventually find a "reason" to let you go. i have things i enjoy about life, i have hobbies, etc. but none of these things give me enough joy to be able to maintain a job without fantasizing about suicide on a daily basis. it's no way to live life, and i've job hopped my entire 20s as a result. i'm 31 now, family has cut me out, have no friends left because nobody understands or has sympathy, i just don't know what to do. this world seems like a cruel never ending nightmare, and no amount of "frugality" is making any difference for me. i know this isn't the appropriate place to post this, but I am actually trying to find solutions, but therapy from some 23 year old in a masters program at a sliding scale clinic is not the answer, i resent their easier life, i resent that mine is way harder. i don't know what to do anymore
July 05, 2019 at 10:03PM
