I was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder a few years ago. Tried medication but did not like how it made me feel.
My anxiety mostly comes from interacting with people, large groups, places that are loud and crowded. I find it difficult to enjoy being out in the world. I hate being surrounded by noisy cars and endless streams of people. I live in a relatively small town but it feels too busy and I am constantly feeling overwhelmed by it all. The only time I feel peace is when I'm in my home reading or watching a movie. I love hiking and being outdoors because it is quiet and peaceful. I feel truly at home there. When I walk down the sidewalk and see everything I have been seeing my whole life- people, buildings, cars, noise, shops- it doesnt look or feel familiar. It feels alien.
I sometimes wonder if, for many who struggle with anxiety, it is simply that they are living in an environment that is not compatible with their nature. That maybe some of us are just meant to live further away from society in a more quiet, less hurried world? That maybe there isn't really anything wrong with us. That we are simply more sensitive individuals. I long to live somewhere out of the way, quietly and simply but money and job struggles make it seen quite impossible for now.
Just needed to share my thoughts. This has been on my mind for some time now..
Submitted May 28, 2019 at 03:14PM by Theworldwithout http://bit.ly/2ws3bHj
