I'm just going to be honest- I hate this. I hate saving money; I hate being frugal. I tend to have a "life is too short" mentality. Granted, I am not struggling to pay bills, but I am wasting alot of money on material things...sort-of like a hobby/past-time. Also, I have a real understanding that life and income can change in an INSTANT. I am also probably missing out on alot of experiences I *could* be having if I were to open my mind a bit.
My birthday is coming up this weekend, and for the first time ever, I cannot think of one single thing I'd want (or want to do for myself). And usually these things are a grand occasion in our household--a trip, or something kinda fancy. It got me thinking (and this may sound like a stupid realization, but for me, it's momentous)....Money just doesn't make you happy. The real fancy chocolates taste kinda like the regular chocolates, sometimes worse. Your bag looks like everyone else's bag. A big house will still get peed on *everywhere* by your frenchie. "What are you doing?" I'm just not sure where we/I got here---- everything is better, higher quality, *special edition* if it costs more, and it's not true....well, sometimes, it is true. Most of the time, it's not.
Then, I get distracted, my friend gets something cool, and I'm right back there. Have any of you ever been here, or are you all just perfectly responsible, well-rounded humans? How do you overcome social norms, feelings of inadequacy, feelings like it really doesn't effing matter anyway, at the end of the day? "Do I need a million dollars to take to my casket?" type of feelings. I want to be stable as an older adult, and I want to live a life I can be proud of---but so much of that I have come to realize is tied to material things. Maybe it's my age-group, but I don't think it's normal to buy "stuff" everyday. Any reformed spenders out there?
February 28, 2019 at 12:07AM
