i love looking good. but i also feel so many things are extremely unnecessary. the struggle is reconciling these two feeligns within myself. i want mulitple different bags for carrying my stuff. i dont need them though, for anything more than feeling good and having variety and expressing myself, a nice privilege of the '1st world'.
i hate that i have a feeling of guilt owning a lot of things. i hate that i feel incomplete if i dont. i hate living in a society that always reminds me of things i wish i had. i know i should try and find fulfillment elsewhere. but maybe i can feel fulfilled in both external things and internal things. either way, i feel like im limiting myself.
so i end up frustrated no matter what i do. and i suppose posting here might give me a biased review, whereas if i posted in a fashion subreddit i might get more or less the opposite. its just that things feel unnecessary, yet enjoyable. but then again what really is necessary. water/food/..shelter?/hygeine&amenities...idk. capitalism has had its way with the world, and people like expressing themselves through creating and consuming 'goods'. ugh, i just hate this feeling of being torn between two idealistic extremes. neither subreddit is the place for this, but here i am making a ruckus. sorry
Submitted July 01, 2018 at 05:37AM by SadElvenMermaid https://ift.tt/2Nej0sv
