I am doing much better with my relationship with food overall, but I'm noticing a distressing pattern... not only do budgets elicit similar responses in me as a diet (i.e., rebellion/repentance/"justthisonce"-itis, etc.), but I can't seem to fully separate my hangups around food and money. I secretly eat, and I did the same with money around my ex, ordering stuff online and having it shipped to work. I would spend every single stray penny of my budget, just like I would eat up to my calorie limit even if I was full. And once I got going on a binge, be it on french fries or Amazon, I would just keep going.
Like I said, I'm doing a lot better with food... mainly because I stopped restricting. Instead of gaining, I'm actually very, very slowly losing weight because I'm not constantly overeating to make up for periods of abstinence - but I don't think I can afford this approach with money!
I actually have to be exceedingly careful with money for awhile, and save as much as possible. Knowing this, I find myself wanting to overeat, eat out, and just buy stuff, constantly. I need to break this cycle, but I'm not sure how. Help?
May 10, 2018 at 12:08AM
