Hey guys. I've hit nearly rock bottom and I need your help. I'm 21 and live in Romania. In the 2010s, I've developed muscular dystrophy, which confined me permanently to a wheelchair. But of course, it doesn't stop there. The various apartment buildings in my city have no elevators whatsoever, but they all have stairs, so I'm stuck inside unless carried out and that's not an option since it's pure agony on my back.
This wasn't the end of it though, because around the same time my mother has developed paranoid schizophrenia and became completely irresponsible, taking out large loans from all sorts of firms to get 4-star vacations. She went to Malta, Greece and Paris (twice), accumulating a huge pile of debt. She's retired early, so she only gets a piddly little pension and she's a chain-smoker, smoking 3 packs a day which adds even more financial strain.
I only get a disability pension which isn't that much and my father is a cab driver who works for a patron. He works from 5 AM to 8 PM and doesn't make a lot. None of this is enough for the massive pile of debt, we live practically check-to-check nowadays.
I want to do something, get a job, make some money and help in putting all of this behind us and moving out so I don't have to stay with my mother, who has completely ruined us. But I don't have any skills, I barely learned anything in the rare home schooled classes I took. And I think I might be suffering from depression, I can't bring any focus or motivation to bear. I try to do some programming or focus on studying systems administration and I can barely focus without my thoughts drifting or switching to doing something else (reddit, fanfiction, youtube). But the others things I do aren't any more compelling. Even my favorite hobby (gaming) doesn't entertain me. I just feel... empty and so, so tired. I don't even remember what it feels like to be happy any more.
Sorry if I've been rambling or incoherent, but this is the first time I've got all this out. Not sure if posting all this was a good idea, or if this even is the right subreddit for it, but I don't really have anything left to lose. Any ideas, guys?
Submitted February 12, 2018 at 12:17PM by Darxchaos http://ift.tt/2o1jCG5
