I know this doesn't exactly pertain to this subreddit, but I really appreciate the perspective of those here and I got a lot of great feedback last time. Let me know if I need to delete.
I had posted this recently and received great feedback from the community-- http://ift.tt/2D2mehl
I have another job lined up and tried to quit today. I sent an email and called her. I gave my 2 weeks notice and stated that I would like to have a time to discuss how to help ease the transition to my absence. She said sending the email was passive aggressive...I copied two HR people on it because I wanted a record. I was so close to quitting immediately through an email and leaving my stuff at work at midnight.
I don't know what happened. She began to yell at me, now I'm doubting if it's even yelling--sounded more like panic and fear. She said everything is in my head. She demanded to know more, everything I told her she had a reason why it wasn't true. I don't even know how she got some of this out of me...I Told her I thought my colleagues were passive aggressive and she said that is just in my head. I told her that my job duties have not been clear, that I have not been given proper training...she said none of that was true and they were getting training specifically for me (that is true--but 3 months after the fact). She said that she really thinks she could help me and make me successful. She has been very direct and upfront with me, but I seem to do everything wrong. I feel like maybe I was over exaggerating everything or that I mistook some of what was said, that I'm weak for leaving instead of proving myself--that is essentially how she put it.
A lot of what she says is true. I haven't been giving it 100%. Mostly because I'm so afraid to be around her. I don't ever want to talk to her or include her in anything. I don't want to ask my coworkers anything. She turned it all around and said that maybe it is ME that is the problem. It's true, I am insecure and do ask too many questions. Everything she says has truth in it and it's really screwing with my mind. So much so that I'm doubting my decision. I don't know if my perceptions or right, or if she just pushes me hard because she believes in me.
I told her I needed a couple of hours and she said okay, but that I HAVE To be in her office by 1:30. I have another phone interview at 1, and for some reason I agreed submissively and felt bad for taking this morning off. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. Just need some support.
Submitted January 17, 2018 at 01:13PM by uhohuhohuhohuhohuh http://ift.tt/2mNePrY
