I am a full time student, I just finished my first year at uni and I am struggling with various things. My dad supported me with rent and living expenses with his savings, (he had a huge bonus) he is applying for a job overseas and there were complications so he's been unemployed. but a year later he spent it all ( he is very bad with money and buys "junk" e.g spent $600 on a stamp and he is a big alcoholic so he spends on his addiction too).
I had about $9.5k (AUD) in savings, I was living in student accommodation with 4 other girls and I made the decision to get my own apartment for pretty much the same price. I am very grateful and I do appreciate my dad helping me survive at uni as not everyone has that luxury. I moved out and signed a 6 month lease, I bought a fridge, washing machine, mattress and bed frame etc with my savings as I already felt bad that my dad was helping with rent so I used my money.
A couple weeks later he told me he was struggling and he could not pay my rent or living expenses for that month, I said I understood and I appreciated all the help he's already given so I was happy to support myself for a bit. Anyways, I thought it would have been 4 weeks until he got his job but now it's extended and he will start earning again at the end of January.
I have other expenses too like a gym membership (12 months) $30 a fortnight that I don't use because my apartment complex has a better gym and the other gym is further away. I got it because at the time I thought I was going to stay in student accommodation for longer and it was next door to the building. I also had to buy Christmas presents for certain people and I feel so bad because it was hard to do and I can't explain my situation to people, it's an awkward situation to be in. I also live in a city far away from my parents home, I don't really have any friends except my boyfriend. I also have bills coming up, my rent is $700 a fortnight in which I have to pay tomorrow.
I have been looking for a job since uni exams ended but it is hard as I don't have much experience, I have applied to over 30 so I am still waiting.
I don't know what to do because I have about $3.5k in my bank account now and I have to support myself until maybe end of January. I have cried so much over this and I feel like there's a weight on my shoulders, I get anxiety about it everyday. I know I made mistakes but all I can do is learn from now. I can't really borrow from the bank either cause I have never had a credit card plus I feel like this will add more stress knowing I am in debt. I just feel very lost and unhappy inside, I also realised during this that I don't want a nice home and stability I would rather save and travel, this isn't what I thought it would be. After my lease ends I plan to stay in a share house and save and travel but at the moment it's hard to dream when my money is disappearing everyday. I feel so stuck. This is also becoming an issue to my relationship as I am more upset and emotional that i can see it starts to frustrate him because he doesn't know what to do. I don't feel good mentally either, I have no motivation for anything, I randomly cry and the other day I was so sad I was craving to drink alcohol and fall asleep which I know is a bad sign.
I feel very stuck and lost so I hope someone has some advice.
Submitted December 14, 2017 at 07:57AM by gaaabbbyyy http://ift.tt/2o7x9iO
