Im 31 and I have been working under the table (trimming weed) and making youtube videos for some years now like 4. I don't make much money I pritty much trim for rent and bills. The YouTube is slow going but a man can dream. I have had mental problems for a long time (Depression anxiety) and im trying to get back to the point where I can pull my life together. Its hard to explain the gap in job history and even then I worked for a temp agency for 5 years before that and the agency is no longer a thing lol. I just don't know how to start. Should I look for a low stress job (low stress lol no car) or should I seek disability. I would never hurt myself but *$ck man I haven't thought about it so much in a long time. My ex-wife had a child when we were together...it was not mine :/. So in Oklahoma (where I lived at the time) thats my baby no matter what. Lol and not to get all sad AF but she left me and came at me for child support... and I paid for like 2 years being held hostage by the logic of the cort system and I swear im not making this up my house burnt down. I was left with 2 or 3 boxes of stuff I had stored at my moms who lovingly took me in. The things I didn't get to save was my payment receipts so when my ex clamed I never paid a dime the state of Oklahoma informed me they don't keep records on payments thats up to the father. Lol at this point you see why I consider death an option so here I am. 31 sad AF and cant make money. I have skills like i said I worked like 375 temp jobs and never had a bad comment. I rock at customer service and sales but the only thing I could sell and not get garnished to death is drugs and that sucks and often times leads to more stress. Im not even sure what im doing here or even are hoping to hear. Just thanks for taking the time to read my rant lol.
Submitted November 30, 2017 at 03:16AM by PhreakPhuker http://ift.tt/2AnMjW1
