So today an argument started in the house I am living in with my mum,stepdad and 1 brother and sister,
Ever since I can remember I've always hated my stepdad I have myself and him only to blame, I was a lazy and rude person to him and he was a genuinely horrible person back to me that would sometimes when I was younger would hit me and pin me up against walls and display his immense anger against me, and I was always so terrified of him I can name so many instances of violence with him but there's far too many to name.
So back to what happened, dying the argument he said some pretty horrible things and came across as just a person that I didn't want to speak or look at, so I walked out into the living which is where I am living until I get a job, and this is why there is an argument in the first place, I'm unemployed, I want to get a job but I could try a lot harder then I currently am and both my parents are very unhappy with me being unemployed which I completely understand.
So after walking out my stepdad came into my room (the living room) and took my computer (which I paid for) and screamed get out now, I could hear my younger brother and sister crying and I felt so bad for how much Sadness I have caused by just being here that I told my stepdad to stop and I would take all my stuff outside, I own a pretty bad car that I can't drive because I have no money for insurance so I put everything in there and I've driven to a quiet country road where I'm planning on sleeping.
I'm 20 years old and I should be able to look after myself but with no money I can't do that, tomorrow I'm going to look for some more jobs in town and hopefully it will lead to something I have no money what so ever but a couple people owe be something small so I might be able to sort that out.
So what are the things I should do guys? I have only myself to blame because I'm so lazy I can't get a job but I've never felt so much hatred for someone in my life that I do towards my stepdad.
Sorry if I misspelt anything or didn't finish a paragraph I'm typing this off my old iPhone 4 it's getting low on battery.
I know people a lot more worse off then me, but I just needed to get this out of my system because I'm just not sure what to do.
Submitted July 11, 2017 at 05:10PM by TaxiGuy1 http://ift.tt/2sNm3Ns
