This is going to be somewhat long. Some months ago, bad choices that I was consistently making caught up hard. I was living with my fiance, and her parents were paying for the rent. I had a job which barely payed me enough to buy food, and I was doing everything I could to get a better paying job but it didn't happen. Eventually my fiance had enough because I wasn't doing my part for other bills and I had a drug problem (which is taken care of), my belongings were stuffed into my car along with $500 and a brief "good luck". I was and still am completely devastated from this. Her father took my firearm which I could've sold for a very much needed amount of money.
With family thousands of miles away, and no friends nearby who were not able to have me stay, I set my sights for NYC where a friend promised a place to stay. This friend got me a job where he worked, which I had for a couple days until I had to take the subway alone for the first time, got lost and was fired on the spot being late. His roommates didn't want me there so out of respect for them I left. Everything went back into my car which was my home for several weeks, until I drove back to where I started from where everything is much cheaper.
A friend contacted me and told me he has a free spare bed in his house and as a manager of a store he hired me. Now, this friend was a foster child, and former foster children have some benefits after they turn 18 including free rent. Their case worker came over recently and informed us that only half the rent would be payed now that I'm staying there. Neither of us are able to pay it unless we'd rather starve to death, and the landlord firmly wants the rent by early next week, so I have to go back to living in my car because I don't want to mess up his credit and get him evicted.
It gets even better. I've got a court case for drug possession (only cannabis but it's a relatively serious charge here) which I can't afford a lawyer/court fees for, one of the penalties if convicted is drivers license suspension which would mean that my "house" would get taken away (my criminal background is clean otherwise). Wouldn't be able to work either. Secondly, I borrowed money from a friend to be able to afford basic needs, old credit card debts, and enormous hospital bills which are from a gunshot wound and being hooked up on a ventilator and a few other minor incidents; my credit is absolutely destroyed. I've been trying to get a better/another job with advice from all around the internet but no luck. I can't afford to eat properly, likely averaging between 400-700 calories a day, weighing 110 pounds or less as at a height of nearly 6ft. No clue how dangerous this is. My car is falling apart and there are several things that need to be taken care of both mechanically and paperwork wise, this earned me a ticket which has to be payed in roughly 15 days or my license gets suspended. I suffer from full body nerve pain which is nearly debilitating at times, of course no money to see a doctor anymore. I make "too much" to qualify for an even a remotely reasonable amount of food stamps. Homeless shelters cost more than I can afford here, I've checked (would rather live in my car anyway). My parents have lost hope in me so their help is very limited. The friends I have are moral support at best but that doesn't mean much anymore at this point.
That's probably everything. Every time when things seem to get better they get worse, there's always something that comes up. I'm starting to lose my will to live as it seems there's no way out of this. What are my options to dig myself out of this, if any? Is there any light at the end of the tunnel that I can't see myself?
Submitted July 28, 2017 at 04:37AM by homelessthrowaway222 http://ift.tt/2w5NymX
