Hi I don't know if this is the best subreddit to post it but I need some advice.. I've been having to sell my body on the internet to creeps for subway cards just to eat and I can't continue doing this further and I need some way to survive..any help/advice would be truly appreciated:
My name is Cheyenne (won't give any more info for safety) I'm in my first year of college in Florida (18 years old). I moved here from my homeland of Trinidad and Tobago as I got accepted to do my undergraduate degree in Law here after being rejected by my country's only reputable university. Things are going okay in my university though I don't really have close friends and I'm staying in an apartment approximately a mile off campus.
Here's where the problem is--- I come from a poor family in which my mother works at a flower shop and my father is a construction worker (their combined salary is equivalent to $2000 US monthly). To get me here and pay for my first year of studies as well as the apartment they had to make a lot of loans from various paces (as my home country is in a state of recession) and they spend most of their salary working towards lessening those loans as they'll need it to pay for the next semester. I don't even know how they're surviving with so little right now. They send me $50 US monthly to spend but my basic necessities (water, soap, toothpaste, toilet paper etc) come up to half of that and I'm left with little to spend comfortably.
My college meal plan only covers lunch on the days I have classes since I'm not a resident on campus and on most days I have to provide lunch and dinner for myself (I have cereal and milk or toast for breakfast). I can't get a job cause my schedule is tight and I lack any sort of skill whatsoever. Also, I've been told since I'm here on a student visa and it's my first year I cannot get a job in the US. Because of this, I have been posting here on a dirty snapchat forum selling my body (yes, photos, videos and even forcing myself on live cam) for Subway gift cards as there's a Subway a block away. I have been doing this for 2 weeks and made around $110 in cards but they have been sufficient as I had Subway (which has now become my favorite meal) 7 times in the past 11 days.
Thing is, I'm in a horrible state mentally and I've resorted cried myself to sleep because I have to do this just to survive. Even worse, I'm certain there are hundreds of explicit photos of me out there now because most people used me for free stuff and I fell for it. I cannot continue doing this and I'd really like some help on what to do..
Please Reddit, save me and help me become free from this nonsense I've gotten myself into. I've disappointed both myself and the Lord as I know he's watching and ashamed of what I have done. A subway card is not worth selling my body and I need advice to survive on my own.
God bless each and every one of you
May 01, 2017 at 02:02AM
