I feel that I am dangerously bordering being a cheapskate and although I am saving a lot, I realized I am not really happy.
I will list some of my habits and let me know if anyone of you can relate, but first my basic profile for context: Male, 33, living alone, employed.
The list:
- I can't bring myself to throw expired foods and just freeze them to eat later.
- I reuse kitchen tissues.
- Although I have other reasons for not dating, my major one is my reluctance to spend money for other people.
- 4km is walkable for me, will avoid spending on transportation as much as I can. Obviously, I never wished to have a car.
- With matters about food, I realized I'm really spending on very low quality food. Sometimes I just envy people who can bring themselves to eat out and enjoy a meal. I can afford but it's just mentally exhausting thinking about spending that money when I can stretch the cost of one meal to one week.
- I forced myself not to use heaters and hot water during winter (and logically the rest of the year), it is still a struggle, as I have said this is not fun at all but I still do it anyway.
- Almost like a hermit: work - home - work. When my colleagues ask me about my weekend plans, I just invent plans.
- Free food and company sponsored eat outs (before pandemic) are one of the happiest moments of my current life. lol
I may have more embarrassing habits but these are the major ones I can list for now. I just realized how some of my financially care-free colleagues are happier when I compare to my being. I'm pondering if all these are worth it and should I just try to be free. Worth noting is that I was raised from poor and rough living and I'm just so scared that it will happen again if I spend money. Honestly, even my savings are not in the right position, just sitting in the bank as I am also scared of any investments and insurance. I honestly have no plans where to use that money and why I am saving it aside from being scared to touch it.
April 24, 2021 at 07:49AM
