Hey everyone. The title gives a succinct explanation of what I'm going through. I'm so caught up in making sure I'm living a meaningful and happy lifestyle that I'm full of anxiety every moment of what I "should" be doing. I have a hard time enjoying activities I used to enjoy like shopping, makeup, interior design, watching TV, playing video games, etc because I'm so conscious of these activities being unproductive and unimportant. I'm beginning to recognize that the best life for me may not be the same as what I have internalized it as being. Example: I grew up thinking of lots of free time, relaxation, and meditation as being ideal. However, I tend to like excitement, big cities, and career-centered living. I've always felt wrong for this, especially being a relatively insightful person, and have a strong fear of "wasting" my life on these stressful activities. But problem is, I LIKE the stressful activities. I get really bored without them and have found myself more bored and anxious than ever before after altering my life to reflect what I thought an ideal life ought to be. I guess I'm hoping for advice on this. Thanks!
Submitted August 01, 2018 at 06:20PM by coffee_talks https://ift.tt/2O60hit
