I’m going to a private college in the spring which costs 280k to attend for four years. My parents are going to pay for around 150-180k and I will pay the rest through working and student loans.
I now feel it’s not worth it as I’m now thinking seriously about my future (when I accepted I was having a severe bipolar episode and hallucinating that I was Jesus Christ). I’m also scared that I will not be able to handle college because I frequently have psychotic episodes where I scream and cry and I also experience psychosis nearly every day. I have tried to commit suicide three times the first being at age 9, second at eleven (leading to brain damage) and third at 14. I almost did it again recently but changed my mind after taking a few pills and told my parents. I’m bipolar and ADHD and my mom is likely BPD and Munchausen’s.
I’m going to talk over my options with my parents. So far my options are: Go to the expensive school Withdraw, go to community college and transfer to a less expensive but still good school ?
I haven’t paid anything except enrollment deposit and housing application fee yet. I’m in community college for Economics right now and studying for my Actuarial Exams which is a lucrative and fast growing career.
Submitted July 05, 2018 at 09:01PM by Annamaria25 https://ift.tt/2m0pM8B
