All my life, I have been pushed towards the next step. In middle school, I was pushed into doing well in my classes so I could take honors classes. Honors classes were rigorous in order to prepare us for AP classes. AP classes were higher caliber to look impressive on college applications and earn credits. In college, lower divisions prepare for upper divisions, and so forth.
My point is for years now I've been on a path to the next step along the line. I've been always looking forward and doing things to prepare me for "the next leap". The problem I have with this, however, I discovered quickly in college people don't take liberal arts degrees seriously, and that they don't really help to get jobs. For context, I'm doing Political Science. So I feel like all my life I have been working hard, and at as I approach the end of the tunnel I'm starting to feel all the stress and pressure I endured was for nothing. My Parents are pushing me to consider grad school. Everyone else is telling me I need to do internships to prepare for a career and honestly, I'm so burnt out. Neither of those really appeal to me, because I'm like "is this even going to get me anywhere?"I've been starting to question the path I've been set on, whether it's really worth it and going to lead me to success, whether I'm actually happy.
During my senior year I'm planning on getting a side job to save money so that I can move to a cool city once I'm done, get some roommates to live in a cheap place, get a minimum wage job and just live life for a while. The idea doesn't seem too bad: I'd like to just take a moment to enjoy being alive. But everyone I tell this to thinks it's stupid and that I need to focus on a career. But that idea is really really distasteful to me. I don't mind working hard for things I want, but I just feel like a career for the sake of a career is dumb; especially when it feels like I'm just doing it cuz that's what society wants and that's just been where I've been heading all my life.
Anyway, thanks for reading I just needed to vent for a bit.
Submitted July 02, 2018 at 02:37PM by MarsMissionControl https://ift.tt/2MF1FIc
