I'm broke. I can't make rent and barely have enough for groceries. I work a job that pays a few dollars above minimum wage—I'm in the purchasing department of a natural food distributor. In my free time, I wrote web content through content mills but it's not paying the bills. My wife doesn't have a job but she's writing web content, too. That's not paying the bills, either. We have three kids. We were collecting food stamps to help make ends meet but I forgot to turn in paperwork and now we lost that assistance. She's not happy with me because we rely on that aid, even though I know it's not meant to be long term and I want to eventually shed the need for it.
I suffer from bipolar disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and depression—occasionally suicidal depression. I'm in Indiana and I hate it here—there are no good jobs here and no future for our kids. I desperately want to move but I can barely cover rent, so moving is out of the question, even though I fantasize about it on a more or less daily basis. My car is acting up now and I'm screwed if it dies on me. I feel helpless and utterly worthless. I don't even want to get out of bed or interact with anyone. I just want to give up.
Submitted October 02, 2017 at 01:30PM by ficklephilosopher http://ift.tt/2xMFRq9
