I dropped out of college/stopped going to classes on 3 separate occasions. I quit two jobs that had promoted me with 0 notice. I moved across my state for half a year and lived with a random guy from craigslist all the while ignoring my family and friends. I could make up excuses for all of this but they'd just be excuses. I fucked up my life continually for no good reason. The first time I quit college I had a full ride scholarship for vocal peeformance.
Despite all of this my parents went above and beyond to give me a fresh start and make my life better. They spent $6,000 on a car and $55,000 on a manufactured home for me to stay in. My sister helped get me a starting position where she works at $13.00 an hour. It has benefits and room for growth without a degree.
My budget currently is tight but not impossible and I have room to save. My biggest problem right now is getting over the fact that I don't deserve any of this because I don't. I'm scared that if I fuck any of this up I won't be able to live with myself, yet alone face my parents.
I can't let them or myself down anymore. I won't. I absolutely refuse.
I'm not sure why I made this, I think I want to be yelled at honestly or be told how important this is for my life. I'm just beyond grateful for such an opportunity and I hope someday I can learn to really love and respect myself again.
Submitted September 26, 2017 at 02:08AM by SA_TT http://ift.tt/2wQ0Tod
