I'm too young, aren't I? I came to NYC approximately 3 months ago with 1,500 cash that was loaned to me by my stepfather, who I'm sure is very happy to be rid of me. I lived in a room in Sheepshead Bay for a month. Rent for it was $500. All the while, I had gotten an extremely part time job as a busboy in a Queens restuarant. All the while, I was applying to as many jobs as I could.
Fastforward. Now I'm staying at a friends of my uncles, trying to find a PRIVATE room, because every room I've had in NYC so far has been shared. A week ago I wrapped up a gig at the US Open as a server. Now I'm waiting to see if that catering company likes me enough to hire me full time for their regular service in Manhattan. The last 5 days I have been on this insane roller coaster ride with a 25 year old woman, a complete stranger who found people on craiglist to move in with her into a 3 bedroom apartment on the UES. She found me along with another roommate. We did everything, including finding as many guarantors as we could and notarizing the lease ... just a few hours ago she told me she doesn't want me in on the deal to move in with them because I'm too young... That room on the UES was a steal. $795 for each roommate. But she didn't want to put herself at risk. And we got along so well! We were really excited and we communicated well and we struggled together about everything and really hustled to secure the room. But she told me in a polite tone that unless I find another guarantor, I'm not in. I can't find another guarantor. I can count on my fingers the people I know and only one of them was willing to be a cosigner. Now I'm staying at his place looking for another room. But I'm starting to think no matter what price or location or room, no one is going to take me. I'm already employed at a catering company and tomorrow they start assigning events ... I have my entire calender set as available and I'm ready to start working. $17 an hour!! It's amazing! Plus I've already done a few events with another company and I'm used to it! The only problem is I don't know where to live. I want to settle down. I've found private rooms for really good prices but ... I don't know ... I'm so lost right now. I love NYC, even when it beats me down. But I don't think I belong here because everyone sees me as a liability. I'm 18. They call me "baby". What am I doing here? I have the energy and will to work and make the money for rent and bills and food but I now I've been let down once again because of my age. I'm "unstable". I've been wanting this my whole life and now I have it. This 25 year old woman, who acts much younger but also wiser, has never had a place of her own! She went home last night to her parents and told me her mother had made her dinner! I don't anyone to make me dinner. I eat alone. I worry about prices by myself. I know I need to find a room and I can because I've viewed many of them, but when it comes down to getting the lease signed, I'm scared. I don't have any credit and I haven't worked much. They won't take me. I have my uncle and his friends who support me. They tell me I need to keep going and that everything will be alright if not difficult, I just need to keep working hard and looking, but they were 18 a long time ago... They've forgotten that feeling... Does someone have any advice for me? I'm sorry this narrative is a little bit all ove the place, I'm so worried right now.
Submitted September 16, 2017 at 02:19AM by iuliangheorghita http://ift.tt/2yemm7d
