So I enrolled in college in 2013, as a Biology major. Everyone had high hopes for me because I graduated with honors in highschool and a few AP credits.
When college actually started i sunk into a deep depression. After my first semester, i took a year off. For financial reasons, and simply because my head wasn't in it. The year after, i got back to it, and met my ex boyfriend. Our relationship was extremely toxic and involved a lot of drugs, and i ended up dropping my classes for a year (after paying tuition) that literally cut my gpa in half. since then, I've gotten sober, seen a therapist and my depression has calmed down a great amount. Now looking back over my college career only successfully completed two semesters in 4 years. This semester, which is when I would have been graduating if everything went smoothly, i was taking remedial math and working two jobs to make ends meet. After taking the final yesterday i have very little confidence i will receive the C required to continue my major. Im 21 and im classified as a freshman. I feel like such a failure. Im 36,000 in loans (first year out of state tuition) enrolled for 4 years, and i have 28 credits. Im at the point where im starting to question if I have a mental disability. My attendance grade is at 100% along with participation my test grades are horrendous however. Would it be wise to change my major to something that doesn't involve so much math and science, or stick with my biology major? The reason i chose this major in the first place was because of the projected salary and the ap credits i came in with. And at one point i was excited about pursuing a career in cosmetic surgery. But now that I'm 4 years in and still a freshman I'm looking at an additional 4 years of school. Depression is knocking at my door. Yes things happen in life but i hate myself for ending up this way. I want to stick with it because I want to prove to myself that i can do it. I know i will have to quit one of my jobs to be able to focus but I can't afford to do so at the moment, since I won't receive aid next semester. Any advice is greatly appreciated
Tl;dr 4 years of college, $36,000 in loans still classified as a freshman, lost financial aid and broke. Feeling like i let everyone down.
Submitted April 28, 2017 at 04:27PM by Pillprototype http://ift.tt/2oUgjzG
