To give background, I live in southern California, early 20s, high school diploma, some college education but no degree.
my financial obligations:
600 rent
300 car payment
160 insurance
100 phone bill
400 loan*
before i continue, i acknowledge i didnt know what i was doing. .
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As to what is going on,
I had a decent paying job up until I got burned out and quit in august. I decided to open a small store (very small). In all I dumped about 9000 into it. that 9000 was from a loan...
The shop almost broke even every day but unfortunately, it was depleting my money, day after day. As of last week, I pulled out and decided to go back to work with another company and sell my inventory online. I got a job, but now have to commute an hour and a half with less pay... after factoring in the cost of commute I realized it wasnt worth the commute.
I realized I hate my job, where i live, my life in general has pretty much been fully explored.
At this point I'm lost, I have some money(about 2500) to pay my rent for the upcoming month (I have to pay by the 3rd), after I pay the rent I will have enough to get by, if i dont find a job. If I pay my rent and find a job, I'm stuck where i live, and live paycheck to paycheck until who knows how long.
I want to leave. I want to just take off right now before I have to pay rent again.
I looked into moving to Oregon, or a state with low cost of living and bigger margin of disposable income, but this could just be another mistake.
I was looking into teaching abroad in china, since its possible to teach without a degree, but it may take months I do not have.
I looked into maybe joining law enforcement but that as well will take months before it can pay bills.
if youre sensitive about suicide and skim this next sentence, i apologize, but ive looked into ways of ending my life.
basically, if anyone has any advise for me, I would entirely appreciate it.
Im also willing to pretty much relocate anywhere I can.
Submitted September 29, 2017 at 06:41PM by throwaway206208 http://ift.tt/2xN9hnj
